Oops… i think i’m exposed… one of my friends (actually i mean wah yoong… by the way, r u watching…) actually found this blog. Since i’m using the same account (which i use to create other blogs) to create this blog, he said he’ll find here no matter what, even if i change the url for this blog… that’s what he said lar… dun know true or not…
So… why i’m kept “hiding” away… in fact, as long as i remember, i always been hiding things such as feelings/thoughts/opinions about people, the thing i desire, dream (if i really have any) and blah blah blah deep within me… why… i oso want to know why…
Maybe it’s the tv’s fault… a couple of spy-stuff tv programmes (series, animes, movies …) i watch when i’m a kid made myself not to expose to much of me to the others or “i’ll be in danger” … Or maybe it’s because i lack of self-confidence… i always skeptical of myself… always afraid that i’ll do something wrong (although i always do) … always afraid that when i share my stuff and others will laugh at me… Or maybe i’m not knowing much enough to share about… since i like something but never ever mad about anything (eg. i’m a MU fan, but not a die-hard one; i like Kamen Rider 555, but i’ve never watch other Kamen Rider series except Kamen Rider Black RX) …
Maybe…
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Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005 at 11:28 am
Okay… till now i’ve created 2 blogs… the another 1 is use for my Game Foundation assignment which i’ll need to find+analyse information and post it up ( i think i should better start working from now on… ) . I’m not going to posting any blogs regarding my innest feelings and thoughs on that blog which there’ll be alot of my collegues and espeacially my lecturer can access it. For now, i’m still not ready to share any of my true thoughs and feelings to someone i know ( actually i’m hoping i can find a person whom i can tell whatever things to him/her, but this kind of person is either haven’t appear of haven’t been noticed or been neglected by me… ) . So this blog is personal…
You may ask if i really want to write something personal and not willing to let others know then why don’t i chose a diary instead of a blog? Well… no 1. i’m still not quite know what i’m doing now is really what i want or not… no 2. actually i do want to share my feelings, but not to the one i know…yet… ( i hope they won’t know the existence of this blog…) …no 3. i’m threading this blog as my diary n i’m still considering owning a real paper-made diary…
I do wonder if theres any people notice this blog…
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Tuesday, February 15th, 2005 at 11:13 am
